Just came back from roving through three cemeteries. One of our seniors was wearing some kind of a spooky mask and was leaning out the car window, scaring passers by while we were laughing hysterically at their reactions. Absolutely one of the most fun Halloweens I had.
My tita from the US visited about a week ago, and told me that she would sponsor my studies in the US for any course that I want to take up. But there’s a catch - that I take my Nursing Board exams here in the Phil. Maaaaan. Just checked and found out that the deadline for filing was earlier this day. </3 Now I have to wait for another 5 months before acing the exam. LOL. Talk about bad timing.
Kuya Paul and Ate Camille’s wedding held last April 6. Kuya’s one of my most favorite cousins. I never thought he would be growing up to be that serious quickly, thinking about marriage.
Hello there Mercados! :)
Funny thing is, the wedding entourage was composed mostly of adults - I got to be the Arrhae bearer - see?
Oh and yeah, I was seriously drooling about the birthday cake ate Camille gave kuya Paul during the wedding. (PS it’s not the wedding cake) Hope someone gives me an ambulance cake too!
Said one character from a movie I watched about two weeks ago on HBO. He also said that you should just write first, without stopping to think, without changing the essence of what you are putting into paper. And that’s what I am doing right now, I’m gonna be trying to write, to blog as I have done before. I believe my capacity to write has gone rusty, since I haven’t been using the old brain for quite some time now. Not for writing, or doing anything, in fact. Where have I been all these months? I don’t know. I may have been lost in the nothingness of my own personality, holding grudges, cocooning myself in the dark depths of solitude.
I have been deluding myself into waiting for opportunities that wouldn’t happen. Been waiting for things that wouldn’t change. My life has come to a standstill, and I am hating every moment of it. This is the point where I am pondering on decisions made long past,with questions arising such as, “What ifs” and statements like “if only’s.”
But I do take certain steps in order to bring the old David into action, once again. Might take a mighty long time, but I still hope it’ll be worth it in the end.
Had another episode of lockjaw earlier. I accompanied my mom to fix something at the Cityhall. One random moment, I just yawned and poof, instant lockjaw. She was like freaking out and was telling me, “May clinic diyan sa kanto, pacheck up ka na.” I was like, “Wang na, mili nalang nayo ngamot tamos uwi na nayo.” (Bili nalang tayo gamot, tapos uwi na tayo). Good thing I was with her that time. I wouldn’t know what to do to be able to commute solo. I’d be like, “Manong mayad mo. Iyang iyinmil mo.” with drool sloshing over my front.
That would just be drop dead embarrassing.
We were drinking a bit last night with some close friends of mine when one of them decided to read our palms. I was surprised because he’s a guy and he does those kind of things.
When it was my turn, I suddenly felt nervous. Nervous because whatever he foretells might come true. According to him, my fate line was hazy (I was the only one with the hazy prediction wtf). That I will be lost a few times in the course of life, but that I will have a progressive growth careerwise. When it comes to love, I will be meeting a lot of people but that there would be this one girl, and I quote, who’ll go “pabalik-balik sa buhay mo”. Wonder who that is though. Healthwise, no major problems.
What bothers me the most is that particular haziness. That I was the one who has to make the most number of decisions in life. And that there’s this one decision that would haunt me for the rest of my life. :(
There was once this one guy. He had a girlfriend who he loved so much. His world revolved around his girlfriend. He believed that it was his life’s destiny to make the girl happy, he should always be there for her. As long as he’s with her, nothing else matters. His mother didn’t approve of their relationship, but he fought for her. He did this for 3 years. Then, all of a sudden, their relationship came to a complete halt. Just because of one petty misunderstanding. They broke up, the girl found another guy to take his place after a month. His whole world crumbled before him, day and night he wept. He tried taking his own life, but to no avail. It was then that he realized how stupid he is, that he loved a girl never worth fighting for, never worth his feelings. He woke up from his stupor, realizing that he disregarded the people around him. Thus, he vowed that he will never make the same mistake ever again, that his next relationship would be his last, his fairy tale come true.
The guy in the story? Me.